Saturday, September 9th, 2006
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1:20 pm - Oh God, what have I done?
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Yup so in 4 weeks i'm going to be a mom. And let me tell you the fear is starting to set in. Sometimes it keeps me up at night. I just can't stop wondering what and who he's going to look like and what kind of personality he'll have. I just want him to be a happy kid. I want him to have a happy childhood. I really just want to meet him.
I feel huge. I've gone from having a waist to looking like i've swallowed a basketball. No stretch marks though. Thank God. It's funny cause you can look at me straight on and not really tell i'm 8 months pregnant.
Well I could go on and on so i'll stop
Tanya
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Monday, June 26th, 2006
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3:13 pm - Woo Hoo!!!
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It's a boy. We are having a son and I am just so excited. It's been awhile since i've been able to get on here and we've known for about 5 weeks but ah thats ok. Not like many people really read this anyway right. So he's going to be RC Mitchell. Yup, just RC. It was my husbands grandfathers name and I really like it and so does he.
There are days when I feel like this child is going to come crawling out my bellybutton he is just so active. But I really feel like those days are such a blessing. Derrick can feel him kick all the time now and we can watch him move whenever I am just laying around. It's kinda creepy let me tell ya.
But anyway, thats about all.
Tanya
current mood:  happy
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Thursday, April 6th, 2006
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2:57 pm - Ah Ha!
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So i'm pregnant, did I mention that lately? I'm in my second trimester which is really cool. Baby Mitchell is due Oct. 8th 2006. We have decided to not find out what the sex is so it'll be a huge surprise in October for us. Our chances of another miscarriage have gone down dramatically since we have gotten this far, and continue to drop every week. I am just really happy.
current mood: happy
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Friday, December 2nd, 2005
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8:41 am - My trip to Florida...
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SUCKED ASS!!!!
The drive took 12 hours which is 2 hours longer than it should have. I road down with my mom and dad. Mom is a chain smoker while driving and Dad likes to revert to his childhood days and kick the back of the seat the whole drive or have his knees pressing into your middle back.
Got to my parents house about 11 pm and found out that my younger sister who is in college is pregnant. Her boyfriend of 5 months isn't quite sure what kind of role he wants to take. Damn them both. I think it is ridiculous that they can screw up and get pregnant while hubby and I actually have to try. Well their lives are gonna change for sure. So I had a drink, which I don't ever do, but it was needed.
Monday was really the only great day. I got to spend time with Tom whom I haven't seen in like 2 years. I couldn't believe how much I missed him. We got to hang out and spend time with Mandy and Teresa too. Ahhh, just like the old days.
Tuesday I slept in and then Phillip took me to lunch. It was weird because we don't ever spend time together but hey, it was a free lunch and I guess it was kinda nice to talk to him. That evening I went and saw the little girl I used to baby-sit and she even remembered me. She's 8 now and a lot bigger than I remember her ever being. He brother is huge now. He's turning 14 really soon. He must be pushing 6 feet. He is autistic but doing really well.
Wednesday I waited around for Mom to get off work so she could take me to sushi. She got home and we headed to the sushi bar but they didn't open till 5:30. It was only 1:30 and I was starving so we went to another sushi bar, but they were also closed and didn't open until 5. So we just settled on some seafood restaurant. Then we went to Emma's (the little girl I used to baby-sit) ice skating practice. She was so happy to see me. She is really good, let me tell you. She's going to be great. They were rehearsing for the Christmas show they are putting on. After her practice Mom and I were trying to leave but Emma begged me not to go and then started crying which made me feel awful. But I had to leave, and when I did I cried too.
After the ice skating practice was over Mom and I went baby shopping. We found a really cute Eddie Bauer bouncy chair and it was on sale she we bought it along with 5 bibs and 6 new outfits. I also showed which bassinet and stroller I wanted. It was nice to spend time with Mom too, especially since she was buying me stuff. I felt bad that she was buying Derrick and I stuff instead of Mollie and David, but she reassured me that she will also be taking Mollie shopping. Mom is just happier and more excited for Derrick and I even though we are just trying because she knows how much we want a child.
Thursday I got up about 8:30 got ready and went to the airport. Talked to a guy from Tampa on the plane who was traveling to Virginia for a friends wedding and the I had to literally run to the next terminal so I wouldn’t missed my flight all to find out they were delayed because the plane we were suppose to take didn’t pass it’s inspection. So I waited and waited to board this tiny new plane. Finally got on board and had to wait in line to fly out. Got to Knoxville about and hour and a half late. Sheri picked me up and took me home. We pulled up to the house and to my surprise Derrick had put up Christmas lights. I was so surprised and so happy. When I got inside I was amazed to find an eight to nine foot tree in my living room. Oh I was so happy to be home and for hubby to have done all this for me. I went and saw him at work and wish I could have just given him a big hug but couldn’t because he was covered in grease. So my big hug will have to wait until I go home today for lunch.
My whole trip I missed Derrick so much. I don’t see myself going to Florida again anytime soon without him. But that is my story about my trip to Florida. Thank you Tom for making it so enjoyable. Sorry we couldn’t have hung out anymore but it just seemed like everyone was pulling at me for some time.
current mood:  tired
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Friday, November 18th, 2005
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4:24 pm - Going on a cruise!
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Hubby and I are going to be going on a 4 night cruise to the Bahamas in June for our first anniversary. I cannot wait. Neither of us have been on a cruise or to the Bahamas. It's really more affordable than we thought it would be. All food and stuff it included so you can't beat it.
Just had to brag.
current mood: excited
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Thursday, November 10th, 2005
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2:31 pm - Weird
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So I have a myspace.com account and it's really cool but strange at the same time. I have gotten in contact with a lot of people Iused to go to school with and it just blows my mind to see how some of them have changed and some are completely the same. Anyway, the reason for the post. A girl I used to be friends with moved when we were sophmores. She totally freaked out when she was moving and turned into a complete ass. She went around telling people I had an eating disorder and some other mean things. So what if I might have had a slight eating disorder she didn't know for sure and she didn't have to go tell everyone in our school. Anyway, she just sent me a message asking how I was doing and letting me know how she was doing. It's just weird. I still don't like her for doing that. But I was nice and told her I was well.
People are mean.
current mood:  shocked
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Wednesday, November 9th, 2005
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5:13 pm - Good husband
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Ok so he got home and called me and let me know he did not buy a truck or four wheeler or anyhting. I once again promised that once we have our baby and our finances are stable we will go and buy him any truck he wants. He seemed ok with that...for now.
current mood:  relieved
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2:51 pm - I have a selfish husband
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Stupid husband wants:
a new truck (nothing is wrong with his 2000 Ford Ranger)
a four-wheeler (A fast one so he can kill himself)
a banjo (he just got a mandolin in April and doesn't even play it, but wanted it so badly)
He had a go-cart but never did anyhting with it so a few months later traded it for new wheels for his truck
He just put pipes on his truck so now you can hear him coming from a mile away and now he doesn't want the truck. The pipes were $300.
He wants a playstation 2 so he can sit around the house while I cook and clean everything and he puts on more weight.
Last but not least he wants a baby. Yup, I want a baby too. But we cannot afford all these things HE wants and a baby. We have talked about all this and he has said that he will wait for all this until we have a baby but what is he out doing right now? Looking at new trucks! I'm going to leave his selfish ass if he comes home with a new truck or four wheeler.
He has been spoiled since day one by his parents because he was the baby and the only son. He has always gotten what he has wanted from them even when they didn't really have the money. Now that we are married he doesn't seem to understand that he is not always going to get what he wants. We decided just the other day that we would wait until we have a baby and see waht our finances would be like and if we are ok then he could go get himself a new truck.
I jsut can't stand this crap. he is such an asshole sometimes.
I just had to get all that out. Sorry.
current mood:  angry
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Thursday, November 3rd, 2005
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3:11 pm - Good news
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Got my results back on the biopsies they did and everything looks fine. We have not had sex in 2 weeks and 1 day so tonight I shall be busy having some hot mad sex. Ohhh I just can't wait.
current mood:  horny
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Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
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3:15 pm - Goin on a trip!!
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hey so I will be in Florida from November 28th thru December 1st for those who might care or want to see me.
current mood: ecstatic
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Friday, October 28th, 2005
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3:13 pm - Late for work
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I am never late to work. NEVER. I only live like a mile, if that, from my job. It was so stupid that I was late today. But I have a good excuse. My car was frozen! Well it had a coating of frost all over it so thick that the windshield wipers wouldn't get it off. So I had to sit there and let my car heat up. I has been so cold up here. I almost wish I had an ice scraper handy so next time I can just scrape it off instead of having to wait.
I guess it could have been worse and been snow. I still have yet to drive in the snow and really am worried what I will do this year. Our road is way too windey and scary for me to drive on in the snow.
Now I am hungry. Derrick and I are trying to eat healthier which is really making me hungry during the day. It is so hard to not just walk over to the snack machine and get some chips or something. But He has been putting on wieght so I guess I should quit my bad habits and help him quit his. I also want to be healthy when we get pregnant so I don't turn into one of those ridiculously fat pregnant women.
current mood:  frustrated
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Thursday, October 27th, 2005
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3:56 pm - Big fat negative
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So....I'm not pregnant. I'm not really upset about it. I wish I was pregnant but I know we have next month and the next to keep trying.
current mood:  determined
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Wednesday, October 26th, 2005
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2:42 pm - Doin' a dance
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I'm late...i'm late...oh happy day i'm late
Yup my period is a few days late so I might just go buy a test tonight after church. I'm really not getting my hopes up though. I'm really not. I'm NOT!!! If i'm not pregnant I will be fine we always have next month. Hehe thats the fun part. :)
current mood: happy
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Tuesday, October 25th, 2005
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2:39 pm - Wedding
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Friday, October 21st, 2005
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4:51 pm - The sky is falling! The sky is falling!!!
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So, today started out as a beautiful day. The sunrise was full of pinks and purples and was just so nice. This afternoon was warm and sunny and perfect. Well, it's almost 5 now and just a few minutes ago I heard this aweful pounding and looked outside to see huge balls of hail. So I turned on the TV and SURPRISE we have a tornado warning! Great! Now our driveway is going to have all the gravel washed away again.
current mood: frustrated
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Thursday, October 20th, 2005
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3:09 pm - Cancer?
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Well not for sure yet, but they did take 3 biopsies yesterday from my uterus. It was not the greatest feeling thing in the world. I feel like crap today. I get to go back in 2 weeks to find out what is going on. It worries me they took 3 because most people I talk to only have 1 or 2 biopsies done. Even if it comes back ok I still have to go every three months for a PAP instead of once a year. I'm not sure if they do PAP tests if you are pregnant. I hope not.
I talked to the doctor about us trying to get pregnant and she didn't say we shouldn't she just said not to have sex for the next 2 weeks becasue of the biopsy areas healing. I really hope we can get pregnant before the end of the year. We have started cleaning out the nursery room and getting it ready to turn into something besides a catch-all room. I think we might work on the other spare room too and turn that into our music room. So far we have my violin, mandlin (which I am getting pretty good at), and his 2 guitars that need a home. He went out and bought this silly guitar lamp that is going to be my inspiration for the room.
current mood:  I'm ok today
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1:37 pm
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Leave your name and:
1. I'll respond with something random about you.
2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.
3. I'll pick a flavor of jello to wrestle with you in.
4. I'll say something that only makes sense to you and me.
5. I'll tell you my first/clearest memory of you.
6. I'll tell you what animal you remind me of.
7. I'll ask you something that I've always wondered about you.
8. If I do this for you, you must post this on your journal (if you haven't already).
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Wednesday, October 19th, 2005
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10:43 am - YOU KNOW YOU ARE LIVING IN 2005 when...
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1. You accidentally enter your password on the microwave.
2. You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years.
3. You have a list of 15 phone numbers to reach your family of 3.
4. You e-mail the person who works at the desk next to you.
5. Your reason for not staying in touch with friends and family is that
they don't have e-mail addresses.
6. You pull up in your own driveway and use your cell phone to see if
anyone is home to help you carry in the groceries.
7. Every commercial on television has a web site at the bottom of the
screen.
8. Leaving the house without your cell phone, which you didn't have the
first 20 or 30 (or 60) years of your life, is now a cause for panic and
you turn around to go and get it.
10. You get up in the morning and go on line before getting your coffee.
11. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. : )
12. You're reading this and nodding and laughing.
13. Even worse, you know exactly to whom you are going to forward this
message.
14. You are too busy to notice there was no #9 on this list.
15. You actually scrolled back up to check that there wasn't a #9 on
this list.
AND NOW YOU ARE LAUGHING at yourself.
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10:27 am - 3 months
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I just realized it has been 3 months today since we lost our first baby. I don't really know how I feel now. How did I forget? This sucks. I've gone from being all excited about Derrick wanting a baby now to wishing I still had my baby. Geez life is hard.
current mood:  sad
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10:16 am - Fingers crossed
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So I am crossing my fingers that later today my doctors appointment goes well and there is nothing wrong with me and that they say it is ok for us to start making a baby. Derrick has decided he deosn't want to until until January, he wants to start now so i'm not going to argue.
current mood:  Praying
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